7 t H e a v e n

And all I know, I feel like a total nuisance these days.

I'm nt feeling right, well , and everythings eating me up
from within and out.

Things have been detoriating and I could feel it deep.

I'm pushed to the cliff yet I don't fall for I'm not made to.

God, I cry to you every day.
I talk to you every day, about
things, I pray for people.

Little did I realise that I was breaking within.
I'm crashing gradually.
I could feel it, I could feel it deep.

I'm not feeling anymore healthy, I know there's
an unwanted truth out there.

God, are you not speaking to me as I'm coming very soon?
Is that what you want?
If it is, I can't do anything to stop it; I am at your will.

Yet before you do take me, give me a chance to bring joy
and happiness to those around me; those whom I love alot.
Not all the ones I love know I love them like hell; as I said,
I hide my feelings to avoid me messing up things; again and again.

Hopefully,
when I become the stars above soon,
I'll finally be loved in return.

And so we left to Singapore on the 25th of May. During the journey, my uncle played 'Coldplay' tracks all the way. It reminded me of my good old times when I was crazy bout them; still am ;P. I heard they're out with their new hit, Viva La Vida or Death and all His friends; can't wait to download em! Back to the journey, I couldn't take my eyes off the 9.00am Sun, amazingly I could look straight at it without hurting my eyes. It was like a bright glowing moon.

The car seemed to sped but it felt a little long before we got to our hotel. The hotel looked a little small from the outside, but the inside was amazing! Beautifully decorated. Anyways, we started our first outing from there, and it wasn't a very good one.

The first day out in Spore was a little hay wire. Since it was the first time driving there, my Dad found it a little complicated. I observed the environment; it was very neat and clean. Not a single paper role or a cigar stick! Nice. However, I got a little dizzy at the end of the day as we were going round and round. It made me despise Spore for that day.

I wasn't looking forward to the second day. Breakfast was okay and I only took mostly toast. We headed off to the Sentosa Island. The second day gradually became a little more interesting. Sentosa Island was practically a theme park island; it just lacked rollercoasters and solero shots. It was more of a recreation park with shows and all. We first went to the Underwater World. Sharks, sting rays; name it. I was in awe to most of them, God'z creation is amazing! Next, we went to the Dolphin Lagoon. I made a mistake; I gave a high expectations on those dolphins. Gosh, I guess they were bored performing the same thing day after day. It wasn't much of the dolphins doing their stuff; I got irritated with the MC talking non-stop. Little of dolphin act; more of human talking. Anyways, I was amazed at the speed these dolphins could swim; super fast! They were a litle pinkish when they are more mature, and more greyish when they're young. Cute lil puppies.

After a draggy show, we headed to the moving tram. I was relieved to sit on the slow, smooth tram with the breeze gracefully brushing my cheeks. There were three little Man made islands, gosh, they were amazing. No time for sunbathing, hence I headed for the Skyride.

I wasn't interested at first. Its not like I was afraid, I just didn't want to take the chances for my uncertain health condition. However, my sister insisted me following her, well, why not! It had the cable car concept; it won't stop moving and you gota get in while its moving. The only difference is its all open and your just sitting on a floating bench without seatbelts.

My sister held her face close to my arms all the way. The bench stopped three times; it wasn't suppose to. Anyways, I took pictures! The sights from above were beautiful. The skies lured me closer to them. I felt like jumping off the bench, the low ground below me was so inviting! Intending not to cause chaos, I changed my mind.

I was suppose to return to lower grounds with my sis using the skyride, but she said she'll get a heart attack if she went on it again. So, we used the Luge. It was something like a small, short compartment where it transports you down; sorta an automobile without its engine; and yeah, you're the driver. Sounds fun? It was.

We raced all the way down. Too many bad drivers, I managed to escape their foolish paths and routes. Upon reaching below, I smiled at the fact that I was well and nothing "black out" scenario occured. The next stop was the amazing laser light show, The Songs Of The Sea.

Its one show you don't wanna miss as long as you're on the face of this planet. Its based on laser light projectors, and of course the sea itself! The whole show uses the real sea! Water shots as high as 80 meters and amazing fireworks. The colors were just eye warming; I enjoyed the show truly.

The next day, we headed to the Jurong BirdPark. Gosh, from cute lil birds to huge prehistoric preys; a park not to be missed. I sound so promoting; but trust me, its a worth it trip. I fell in love with some of those pretty birds, their eyes so luring!

The higlight of that night was the Night Safari. We moved in a tram to visit all kinds of animals; lions, mooses, leopards, etc. I enjoyed the ride as we were moving through the night jungle; the chill breeze, the sounds of crickets ; glimmmers of the moon, and a beaufitul lake. I was missing something somehow, I was missing someone beside me! It would have been complete with someone beside me to enjoy all these, my family were sitted way in front.

We were back the next day. A trip I won't forget and hopefully, another one with my Sunset. MUAHAHA!

Cheers to nature.

One hectic day but a day with smiles. =)

Started off with an early wake to the immigration. The queue was absolutely long though I thought I came early! After writing in some documents, I rushed to Cyber to get my student ID done. Then rushed back to collect my passport. Then rushed to Taylors! Haha, catch me if you can? Perhaps ;)


I was thinking about how would I teach these bunch of people I've never met. But knewing Sunset will be there, I smiled. Getting out of the car, I saw Taylors standing proudly with the Rockmount Cafe having its 'mount' word unlighted up. To cut things short, I met Sunset and we dashed to her classmates.

They were cool. It was awkward at first, considering that I met them while they were chewing on white mee and some other chinese dish. She hadn't had her lunch, I somehow felt hunger slipping away. I was more tensed to the tutorial session! haha.

We walked through the libby and found a nice room. The chocs did make her smile, though maybe it was the wrong time to give as she felt like puking. :P Anyways, zooming to the tutorial part, it went alright and they got things right. :) Nice people indeed.

Then we pooled! It has been a long, long, long time since I got my hands on the Q! It was nice to hold it back again! Felt like I was home..:) haha..I challenged her games. Whoa, she's a player! I got knotted in twice! Only got her the last game! All in all, I enjoyed the game. Enjoyed playing with my Sunset. :) Can't wait for more pools with her after this!

At 5 plus we waved goodbyes. It was a tiring, yet filled up smiles day! Sunset, improve your CS skills! haha..you weren't that bad anyways. I don't even know the keys. :P Taylors environment was much better than MMU by the way, lively!

Time spent was short, hoping for longer hours next time!

Loveable moments of an awkward beginning to a colorful ending!

I could feel everything,
Everything; just name it,
I read the news today,
I won the lottery;
of Becoming the happiest person on earth;
I made you smile

I saw the photographs,
A crowd of smiles framed up the picture,
A film made it all better,
I ran into the picture; I love to turn
you , from
The fields of corns to beds of roses;
On that note I'll fly high with you.

The music ran with me oh boy,
It made its beats and I made
moves,
Fell out of bed so out of control,
Your image keeps poppin
in my photograhic memory;
A crowd of smiles made up my mind,
I'm loving you like hell
and so a tale to tell.

Nothing like I would admit,
at any condition even if it would meant
being drunk;
Anyways little punk; your eyes
bond me to your soul;
Nothing close to a foul,
borrow me 50 dollars?
NO! is not what you say,
neither is YES!,
all you ever say is,
"I'd give you a hundred dollars
if you'd love me with all your heart
and never let me go no matter what
happens."

And I go, exterminate that 100 away;
hence you get it FOC.
You have my soul and heart now.

I couldn't find a proper mattress at any corner in my room; nor the entire house. Feeling a little agitated, I gave up and just packed up my Couch pillow and a just-fitting blanket. With bags packed and zip zipped, I left to Cyberjaya.

Upon reaching there, my attendance got checked. For a deeper info, I wore Meters Bonwe jeans and a white Nike t-shirt. While having a little chat with friends, finally the bus came. Two buses; I took the first.

The journey took approximately two hours. During the ride, I had a long chat with my friend on various topics. We talked about our hometowns and how weird they were. Time passed and the camp site came into view.

It was named "Woods Resort'; but didn't look or seemed like one. The dorm was smaller than my room, yet it packed 10 double deckers furnished. Thank God for the comfortable mattress. In fact, I was planning to sleep outdoors.

Lunch provided was feeling. I broke the unbearable silence with Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen. Everybody went stunned and then laughed. That was what I wanted. It seemed that everybody was too serious. Finishing lunch, we got back to dorm, changed to shorts/stripped to boxers/got rid of t-shirts/etc/, raced back to the awaiting river.

One of the longest time-in-water-session of my life. 6 hours bathing in a deep cold river? Sounds watery but it was true. I shivered so , so hard. At that time, I felt like hugging someone tight. But no, I only saw monkeys. A big No.

Feeling cold and bored, I broke up from the group and started to venture. Followed the walk-tracks where it headed higher and higher into the hills. The high comm did warn us not to break away from groupsl but hey, solitary is needed. Haha. The amazing sights of nature was unexplainable. The flowing streams were breathtaking. Sounds of the birds, the softness of the breeze; everything seemed unreal but it was. One thing was missing though, would have been better if I had someone to experience it with me! I saw various creatures I've never seen before; big huge bugs. It was quite a long venturing when I suddenly realised I was too far from the group. Taking a last glance, I headed back to the camp area.

Barbeque was tiring. I barbequed all the chickens for all my mates! Gosh, I felt like I was in a furnance! Even burnt my lower hand ( a little) :). Anyways, it was nice to see my friends eating my barbequed chicken; hehe, though me myself never tasted it. Everytthing finished as the lecturers joined in too!

We then had talent time. Some performed with acoustic while I performed acapella. Got an applause for more than words. Huhu. Again, I got bored as the later performace were all time dragging. I headed off from the group, I watched the amazing moon! It was too beautiful. I laid down on an open area and just looked at the sky. I spotted the brightest star! The sight was splendid. I'll never forget it.

Today morning, we packed up. I was a little sad to leave the place, as it was so beautiful, nature was perfect, but then I remembered; I'm going home to see my Sunset. =)

There was this moment,
I came by waiting,
Before a big white tree,
Under the bright, chilled curtains,
Then I looked up
to be blinded,
by the brightest star,
My eyes glowed in
awe, it closed a while,
Then I opened ,
And saw an amazing angel,
Taking my hands,
Wiping my tears,
She told me that I would be home , soon.

This dream was none like other,
Oh how much I wonder,
The days left to spend here I ponder,
Till then, I hope I could taste
a little happiness,
just a little would do. =)

I was just going through her blog. God, I actually find it lovely!! With the theme jazz music Loving You by Kenny G., it was just amazing! Everytime I come to your blog Sunset, I feel different and belonged! The words you write are so dam meaningful and deep. Like that alot.

Gosh, I always wanted to write this. Anyways, I finally did!

Can't wait for more of your post Sunset! Keep up the good work and I'll always be there for you.
Smile.=)

So yeah, you know we popped in to this shop and all, then theres this little tiny choc she wanted; not like I was forgetful but yeah didnt my bring my wallet, actually I lost it. Well she paid but clearly she wasn't satisfied; you know I got playfully pissed, I said wth it was just a candy and she went " Breakin' up with yeah" and I was ; fine, whatever, so then I asked the pretty cashier for a date.

Another scenario. I bring her to this shop and I want Skeetles but she's jumping for Hershey's so yeah we got both. Again I didn't bring my wallet but so happened I had cash in pockets and unfortunately enough for only one. She hadn't had cash so I paid for her choc. My girl walked out ; the cashier pitied me and hence gave me Skeetles FOC. Well then I dumped my girl; dated the cashier.

Sounds pretty weird but thats life.

My girl and I walk in this store and she said she felt like eating chocs. We browse through the lot and our hands picked the same bar. Went to the cashier, I opened my wallet and paid. Since we were the 100th customer, we got a free gift; two tickets to Hawaii. As we walked out the store, I muffed her face and she playfully played my hair.

Listen,
can you hear?

Wait,
the winds rushing by,
can you feel?

Holy smokes!
the air's loosing up,
can you breathe?

The mist of the morning,
can you see?

Take me away, as quick as you can,
and I shall watch these amazing things,
with awe and admiration,
I shall have undyingly no worries.

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